dreaminnvain's Diaryland Diary

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Wowzers, an update.

Haven't updated in a while. Life has it's ups and downs. As have I.

I would say we've become good friends, but currently I'm loathing it more than anything... even though it's all I really have.

Life is a blessing and a curse. Cliche, but nevertheless true... and ironic.

Midterms have come and passed once more. They weren't much to them this semester. Nothing like the semesters before at least.

I've found this bath and body facial scrub I have not only smells good, but is quite affective.

Also, I'm not allergic to it. Hooray.

I've been listening to Sixpence None the Richer nonstop lately. Especially this song: Dont Dream It's Over
There is freedom within, there is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
While you're traveling with me

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

Now I'm towing my car, there's a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof
In the paper today tales of war and of waste
But you turn right over to the T.V. page

Now I'm walking again to the beat of a drum
And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
Only shadows ahead barely clearing the roof
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
Don't ever let them win

Dunno why... perhaps it's the beat. Saw II is coming out soon and wouldn't you know that only sadistic material such as that film would make me look forward to next week.

Maybe it's a sign =)

Yes Liz... you are going to develop into a psycho. Enjoy the mind trip.

I'm fiddling around with magic cards. Seeing what I can pull off with what I have. I would say I should sell all the others I rarely even look at, but I never know when I'll need to call upon them. So I keep them stored away.

My parents decided on trying to buy the land we're on instead of trying to move. I'm relieved, and upset at the same time. In any case we're going to be in debt and finances will be short and tight. My mother is talking about getting a part time job on top of the full time one she already has.

I'm helping out as well. So once I get my laptop paid off... no better car for me (let us hope the one I have now holds up). I'll be helping us keep our home. What fun.

Ever since I moved in to the new family I'd been comfortable because they had all their major debts paid off. Now I'm left with the same worry and stress I grew up with. Hoping that with every paycheck you can get a few more dollars to get buy. I hate not having much money...

At least when I finish my education I'll be able to land a job that starts off twice as much as both my parent's salaries together.

All I'm asking for is a nice two story house... a little older, but not ready to fall apart. That, and a mustang. I'm happy after that.

It'd be nice to have a g/f too. (If you're reading this Heather I guess you just figured out what happened today. Nice, huh?)

Oh well... I'll try to remember to update tomorrow.

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I once knew someone who was dark and descreet.
So hidden they were, they hid inside of me.
Pulling on strings that were tied to my heart.
Until the day they broke it apart.
For long I looked for that old 'friend'.
Searched the world over. Then once again.
And once I found her looking back at me
I turned from the mirror so I could no longer see.
For my friend and I were one in the same.
I was the only one to blame.